When I was in my mid-to-late 30′s, I experienced a clinical depression. I had everything in life to be happy about, but I was overwhelmed and felt like nothing in my life would ever be different and there was no end to my stress. I was a compulsive overeater and had quit smoking after 15 years and had my second baby and he did not sleep through the night for over 10 months. I was over-exercising and was in a vicious cycle that became more than I could handle. I remember having thoughts of suicide.
I had expressed my situation to a stranger who asked me if I had ever considered that I might have an eating disorder.
Strange as it may seem, I didn’t look at myself that way. Now I can see that I was trying desperately to control my life through eating and exercising, and it wasn’t working. Through this stranger’s encouragement, I went to the Center for the Treatment of Eating Disorders and received counseling and anti-depressants. It was a rough patch in my life. But it didn’t stay that way!
The good news is, I’m now 60 and have experienced much happiness in my life and continue to do so. My kids are young, happy adults and I’m moving into a new stage of life-looking at possible retirement and new horizons ahead.
After the rain, the sun will shine. Life is full of cycles. Don’t be afraid to seek help.